I seem to be making a lot of lists lately. Some of my lists are: a list of what co-morbidites I have, a list of things my weight keeps me from doing/enjoying, a list of what I want to do when I lose the weight, a list of things I will be able to do that I can't now, list of what I will and will not be able to eat, list of things I need to buy to be prepared for the surgery, a list of the vitamins and minerals I will be on for the rest of my life, a list of where I am in the process and many more lists. I keep them all in a notebook I use.
Here's my progress list:
[X] gallbladder sonogram
[X] nutritional consult / Lifestyle Change Class
[X] referrals for psych exam, sleep study, and gastric bypass
[X] psych exam (still waiting for results)
[X] appt 1 for sleep study (breathing test)
[X] appt 2 for sleep study (dr. consult)
[ o ] appt 3 for sleep study (actual sleep study/CPAP fitting) ***SCHEDULED 16 NOV***
[ ] appt 4 for sleep study (followup and results)
[ o ] appt with nurse practitioner ***SCHEDULED 8 DEC***
[ ] insurance approval (too early to begin this)
[ ] 2 week pre-op diet
[ ] blood work
Slowly working my way down the list. It's frustrating because I am ready to get it done, but I know that this time is allowing me more time to prepare myself mentally. I feel like I am in the last month of a pregnancy, except instead of a new baby, I am going to have a whole new me!! Well a new me physically at least. I will have a lot of challenges to overcome afterwards both emotionally and physically.
I know that WLS (weight loss surgery) is not a magic pill or a quick cure. It is a tool. And used properly I will lose weight. If after a year I abuse the tool I will gain the weight back. I truly will have to change my ways emotionally and physically. I will forever have to eat differently and be active and do regular exercise. Even if I reach my goal weight I have to continue to work towards keeping that weight off and not falling back into old habits!