Decisions, decisions...

So I think I have chosen who I want to go with.  I have an appt on the 1st with them.  I have done a lot of research on them and the other group and like what I have found.  I am going with http://www.texasbariatricspecialists.com/ even though they are a few hours away.  Just the surgery will be in San Antonio, my followup care will be local.  I am hoping everything goes well at my appointment.

I have talked to my PCM and he is agreeable to me having the surgery, so I know that when I need the referral it won't be a problem.  I also learned that I am Glucose Intolerant.  Yet another reason to lose weight.  I am going to go on a diabetic diet until my surgery.  I have an appointment with the local diabetic nutrition meeting on base to help me.  I don't want to have it turn into actual diabetes.  

I've been researching protein shakes too.  I want to sample some and figure out which ones I like BEFORE I have the surgery so I am not having to deal with that when I am in pain.  Here is one that has really good reviews: Syntrax Necter. 

I have decided to write myself a note.  In this note I am going to write about how unhappy I am heavy.  What all I am unable to do and what all I look forward to doing when I lose weight.  I am going to remind myself that when things get rough in the first days after the surgery it is for a good reason and that I did not make a mistake.   I will use that note to remind myself how I feel now to give me motivation not to give up.

I have told my hubby I DO NOT want to be babied.  That I HAVE to get up and walk and move even if it hurts. 

I am being open about this plan.  When I tell someone I am thinking of having this surgery, I am not embarassed.  I am embarassed that I allowed myself to get this fat, but I will not be embarassed that I am getting the surgery.  I am finally doing something proactive to correct the years of  mistakes I have made. 

Weightloss surgery is NOT a cure or an easy way out, but it is a TOOL and when you use that tool correctly, you have good results.  I have decided that I WILL be a success story!  I am going to stay on the positive side on this!  I have been through 2 c-sections, 1 uterine suspension, 5 deployments and multiple field rotations.  I have raised two small children in a foreign country with my husband deployed.  I am STRONG and I can do anything I put my mind to!